Brown Girl Magazine
  • Home
  • Trending
    • In the News
    • Feminism
    • Politics
  • Entertainment
    • Bollywood
    • East-Meets-West
    • Filmy Buzz
    • Music
    • Cinema
    • BG Poetry
    • Good Reads
  • Culture
    • Social Activism
    • Breaking Taboos
    • Colonial Effects
    • Humanities
    • Identity
    • Indo-Caribbean
    • Tradition
  • Lifestyle
    • Beauty Buzz
    • Fashion
    • Foodie
    • Career
  • Health
    • Mental Health
    • Women’s Health
    • Clean Eats
    • Fitness 101
  • Relationships
    • Dating
    • Love
    • Parenting
    • Marriage
    • Sexuality
  • Community
    • BG Youth
    • Black Lives Matter
    • USA
    • United Kingdom
    • Canada
    • South Asia
    • Spotlight
  • Brown Boy
  • Listen
shop
No Result
View All Result
  • Home
  • Trending
    • In the News
    • Feminism
    • Politics
  • Entertainment
    • Bollywood
    • East-Meets-West
    • Filmy Buzz
    • Music
    • Cinema
    • BG Poetry
    • Good Reads
  • Culture
    • Social Activism
    • Breaking Taboos
    • Colonial Effects
    • Humanities
    • Identity
    • Indo-Caribbean
    • Tradition
  • Lifestyle
    • Beauty Buzz
    • Fashion
    • Foodie
    • Career
  • Health
    • Mental Health
    • Women’s Health
    • Clean Eats
    • Fitness 101
  • Relationships
    • Dating
    • Love
    • Parenting
    • Marriage
    • Sexuality
  • Community
    • BG Youth
    • Black Lives Matter
    • USA
    • United Kingdom
    • Canada
    • South Asia
    • Spotlight
  • Brown Boy
  • Listen
shop
No Result
View All Result
Brown Girl Magazine
No Result
View All Result
Home BGBlog BG Poetry

A Lonely Woman’s Letter to Her Future Self

Brown Girl Magazine by Brown Girl Magazine
August 12, 2022
in BG Poetry, Body and Soul
0 0
0
A Lonely Woman’s Letter to Her Future Self
0
SHARES
1
VIEWS
Share on FacebookShare on Twitter

by Anjali Arora

Dear Future,

I am writing this to you because I think you are the only one who can ever get me.

You see future, you are the only place where my hope lies because the past has crushed me over  and over again and the present is still dragging me down.

People leave me, studies eat me, scars accompany me, sleep fears me, books love me.

Insomnia and books are my only companion. I am dying out here.

I am not a facade.

My tongue, while speaking stutters and sometimes speaking at all, feels like world’s hand gripping down my throat, strangling and suffocating me, feels like dying.

I am not strong.

I am not intentionally weak or fragile; I try being strong but society is pushing me down and dragging me into the darkest corners.

My demons are overtaking me.

So future, I want you to make this right.

I want you to give me my hope back because I am placing everything in your hands.

I am asking you to move on.

Don’t give me scared boys who just want to use me. Give me one broken boy who wants to be mended by me, who wants to mend me.

Future,

I am angry with you because the past and present have left me with no reason to live.

I hate you for tearing my family apart.

But I still want you, the same way you are but with something worth living for. For me.

You can give me magic and wonders I have always worked for or show me the infinite cosmos of the world. Or You can just show me the whole universe in some boy’s eyes.

Future, people fear you and try to bribe you.

You are my friend.

I sometimes feel crazy talking to you, but you are all that I have.

I believe in you, future

Because you are the only thing that can drive a man crazy and make the strongest one of them fearful.

They might try to contain you and figure out your plan, but you have your own maps and a planned destination for each and every one of them.

Dear Future,

I love you because I believe the people who go through the most horrid waves and storms end up in the best destination.

I know you might think I am insane, a psychopath asking you for things and telling you what people think.

But believe me, you are my only friend.

Dear Future,

I think you are my first love.

Let’s hope I end up finding another

Love always,

The fearful past

[Read More: Brown Girls Guide to Trolls and How To Fight Back]


futureAnjali Arora is a 17-year-old who will be studying English honors at Shiv Nadar University starting this year. She is a spoken word enthusiast who loves writing, mainly about social and political issues, or anything she believes needs to be heard. You can follow her on Instagram @anjali_sanjam.

 

Tags: anjali arorabeautyboyfrienddesifuturehopelovemarriagepoempoetryrelationshipRomanceself careself confidenceself-lovesmartsouth asiansouth asian womenstrengthstruggletrauma

Recent Posts

  • Sun and Skincare: South Asian Beauty Influencers Share Their Summer Season Must-Haves
  • Kayan Opens up About her Music Artistry
  • Decoding Dopamine Dressing This Summer
  • In Conversation With Ashok Amritraj: Celebrating his 40-Year Legacy
  • Enduring the Fight for Freedom

Recent Comments

  1. Op-Ed: Rihanna, Savage X Fenty, and the Continued Misuse and Disrespect of Hinduism on Dark Goddesses and me: Religious Colorism in Hindu India
  2. Celebrating International Mother Language Day and Multilingualism on On Language and Home: Revisiting Jhumpa Lahiri’s ‘In Other Words’
  3. What International Mother Language Day Means to British Bangladeshis on Celebrating International Mother Language Day with Self Reflection and Reclaiming One’s Bangladeshi Identity
  4. Book Review: Understanding Public Health on Deeper Level with 'Health Care of a Thousand Slights' by Anjana Sreedhar on Pursuing Inspiration: Former U.S. Surgeon General Vivek Murthy on Health Care, and Self-Care
  5. Book Review: ‘ZOM-FAM’ by Kama La Mackerel on Grazing Over Pages of Identities Unmilked: ‘The Cowherd’s Son’
Facebook-f Twitter Instagram Youtube Envelope

About

Founded as an online publication in 2008, Brown Girl Magazine is a multimedia company based in New York City with global reach dedicated to South Asian self-expression, cultural anchoring, and dialogue.
Through diverse, multimedia content and community building, we empower and engage those who identify as a part of the South Asian diaspora with a hyphenated identity.

Subscribe To The Spark

A curated newsletter full of dinner-table worthy topics, thought provoking stories, promo codes and the spiciest memes straight to your inbox.

Categories

  • Entertainment
  • Culture
  • Lifestyle
  • Health
  • Relationships
  • Community
  • Brown Boy

©Copyright Brown Girl Magazine Inc.

  • Company
  • About
  • Contact
  • Join
  • Advertise
  • Sponsored Content
  • Privacy Policy
  • Term of use
No Result
View All Result
  • Home
  • Trending
    • In the News
    • Feminism
    • Politics
  • Entertainment
    • Bollywood
    • East-Meets-West
    • Filmy Buzz
    • Music
    • Cinema
    • BG Poetry
    • Good Reads
  • Culture
    • Social Activism
    • Breaking Taboos
    • Colonial Effects
    • Humanities
    • Identity
    • Indo-Caribbean
    • Tradition
  • Lifestyle
    • Beauty Buzz
    • Fashion
    • Foodie
    • Career
  • Health
    • Mental Health
    • Women’s Health
    • Clean Eats
    • Fitness 101
  • Relationships
    • Dating
    • Love
    • Parenting
    • Marriage
    • Sexuality
  • Community
    • BG Youth
    • Black Lives Matter
    • USA
    • United Kingdom
    • Canada
    • South Asia
    • Spotlight
  • Brown Boy
  • Listen

© 2023 JNews - Premium WordPress news & magazine theme by Jegtheme.

Welcome Back!

Login to your account below

Forgotten Password?

Retrieve your password

Please enter your username or email address to reset your password.

Log In

Add New Playlist

Are you sure want to unlock this post?
Unlock left : 0
Are you sure want to cancel subscription?
Go to mobile version